awkward. – Too Fat To Skinny Dip

new year, who you?

I can’t remember the last time I could breathe. Breathe. The simplest necessity of life. Yes, I took in oxygen for the purpose of, well, not dying, but not to live. I just needed enough air to get me through. After a tumultuous 2021, I had high hopes for what 2022 was going to bring…
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smoke & mirrors.

I’m a runner. Very much not of the athletic kind, wine run maybe? When things get hard or overwhelming, I struggle to compartmentalise and rationalise things in my mind. It can all be too much. I’ve mentioned before I feel things deeply – A blessing and a curse, a great and a not so great…
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dating food.

Since 2017 I have captured 20,889 photos in my camera roll. Clearly, I enjoy snapping away, capturing anything and everything. Moments to take away and reminisce over later. I love the yearly memories that pop up. Amongst the strategically angled selfies, far too many pictures of Matt (I see why he gets annoyed), and of…
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this is me.

“I am brave, I am bruised, I am who I meant to be, this is me. Look out ’cause here I come…” Things happen, life changes you. They say people don’t change. They do. Maybe not their core values but experience definitely can’t have some form of impact. If you don’t grow, experience, learn –…
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perception on perception.

Fucking perception. I’m not a fan of the word. Or should I say I’m not a fan of my perception of perception – hold tight I feel this one will confuse us all! The definition of perception; the way you think about or understand someone or something; the ability to understand or notice something easily;…
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cost of a smile.

We stopped into our local caravan coffee shop at the town basin on Saturday for one of their delicious coffees. I have a crazy weird obsession with takeaway coffees. Drives Matt insane. Heading into town “Should we get a coffee?”. Going away for the weekend “Should we pick up a coffee?”. Sunday “Should we go…
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washing line.

Hanging out the washing this afternoon it was hard not to notice the variety of what was being hung. Small Elmo pajamas, country road jumpers, basketball bibs, work shorts. Undies that take 10 pegs, undies that take 2. It got me thinking… I am not really a fan of the whole hanging out of the…
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recovering arsehole.

Yesterday I was told we have a toxic office environment and I am a big part of the reason. My initial reaction is shock, a few tears and then rolls in the overanalyzing, overthinking… replaying all interactions, the self-doubt, throw in some anger. Sure, I can be a bitch from time to time but Toxic?…
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my new old hat.

I bought this hat about a year ago. Needed a decent hat, cost me $140, size2xl because – ya know, big brain. Now I don’t know what sort of Jimmy Neutron, Beavis and Butthead, StewieGriffin type would be in to this females Me & The Brave wide brim tanfedora because I’m thinking these are the…
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write a blog.

Write a blog they say, I’d read it. OK I’ll write a blog then, this must bemy 75th attempt, surely it can’t be that difficult. But this time I google ‘Howto write a blog?” 1. Find your “big idea” – I rarely have ‘big’ ideas 2. Research Your genre – Firstly, I hardly know what…
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